memories (written in 2022)


we thought the love would last forever 

we had such fun times 

the car rides 

singing our favorite songs 

now i skip them when they come on

the movies we had watched 

the trips we had went on 

the dinner and ice cream runs 

i don’t even like ice cream 

it didn’t matter though

as long as i was with you 

you were perfect

we were perfect together

until we weren’t 

the phone calls for advice 

i don’t even have your number anymore 

the countless sleepovers 

I don't even know your address anymore

the tears cried on each others shoulders

the experiences we went through 

we were always together 

what happened?

as time goes by these memories fade 

the thought of you fades 

how i remember you 

that’s not who you are anymore 

i block out the bad 

i don’t want those times in my head 

I want none of you in my head.

you were once my everything 

but now you are nothing but a stranger 

unfollows 

blocked numbers

deleted photos 

i do not even know who you are anymore 

sometimes i just wish we could begin again 

forget these memories 

good and bad 

create new ones 

but maybe im just ready to create new ones without you 

maybe its for the better 

were not who we used to be

but if I ever see you again

don't act like you know me

ill do the same 

maybe a conversation will begin 

but it will start with 

hello… i’m delaney nice to meet you

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