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Thoughts of the day today were pretty hard to narrow down to just one to talk about. Today i went dress shopping, which if you’re anything like me, you hate, especially on some days more than others. Today was one of the days I just couldn’t do it. I couldn’t even pick out dresses because I knew i’d hate them on me. I tried on one and just called it a day, got in a mood and couldn’t shake it. I hated it so much. I see all these girls around me in these gorgeous gowns, not even, it could have been such an ugly dress but it just looked gorgeous on them. I felt like crap about myself. I just wanted to go home, even though i drove 3 hours away for this. My friend also wanted to try “raising canes” for the first time and the plan was dress shopping then food. After not eating all day, i was excited for this plan, but right as we stepped into the boutique i wasn’t even thinking about it. The absolute last thing i wanted to do was, eat. It took a while but i realized no, i’m starving literally f that. i’m eating. i need to, and it’s a whole fun thing out of it. a fun car ride, blasting music, etc. So, i gave in, which again, not ashamed of at all, and we drove like a hour just to get it and then devoured it. Literally i don’t think I have eaten so much, and i’m so happy about it. Because why shouldn’t i be? The calories? How bad it is for you? no. You really want to live your life based off home-cooked chicken and broccoli you’re whole life? saying no to plans to get food just because you don’t know the nutrition facts? Well if that’s you’re cup of tea, go for it. Personally, i want to live my life, and just be happy. Now i’m not saying go to McDonald’s everyday and pig out, no. Its all about balance and what YOU want to do. That’s what i honestly think everyone needs to do, whatever YOU want to do, for YOU and no one else. Don’t try to impress or live for anyone but yourself. If you know me personally, you’re probably like wow Delaney, you’re such a hypocrite and hey, maybe you’re right, but at the end of the day, especially recently, i’ve only been doing what I want to do. I think it’s the things that’s helped me get to this point. You really think people won’t even talk about how i have a blog, what a loser am i right, but i just don’t care. I like writing my thoughts out, so im going to do it, whenever I want too. Life is just whatever you make it out to be. People can say and do whatever to “make you’re life hell”, but end of the day it’s you’re life and you choose what to do with it and what to make it. Anyways going back yes canes was amazing, I know i’ll find a dress eventfully but anyways, we then continued to drive around and end up at some beach i randomly found and had a whole little photoshoot. Again, we might have looked so stupid to an outside eye, but we had so much fun doing it and again, just don’t care. We did all of these things so care free and just had fun and it’s just a good memory. So I don’t really know what the thought was of the day actually yes, it’s to get over yourself, and caring so much about something that you shouldn’t be doesn’t do you any good. Just live your life and do what you want, end of the day the only person you have to make happy is you. So, choose to be happy :) It’s much more fun! 

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